At work, I went into the four year olds' room to help pat backs and get them to sleep. After a little while, my boss came to talk to me about doing the WalMart runs for the daycare since our cook, who normally does it, it getting far enough into her pregnancy that it's hard for her to bend and lift. Since I'm not usually working in the mornings, I was asked to do it! I couldn't say no! I love doing anything I can to help out!
Anyway, I went back into the room and worked on a few things before one of the boys had some kind of nightmare. The other teacher in the room calmed him down and he went back to sleep. After about 5 minutes and after the other teacher went on break, he woke up again and told me he had an accident. We got that all taken care of and I sat him down at the table with markers and some paper so he could color. We talked for a while and I had turned around to tell one girl to get her hair out of her mouth because she could choke on it. The boy looks at me with the straightest face and said, "I choked on a cow once." I asked him, while trying not to giggle, how that happened. He told me, "It's magic!" I thought I was going to die laughing! He and his two brothers have the best stories! His younger brother is in the room I teach in. He's an adorable little sweetheart and onery as hell lol The oldest of the three is in the five's room. He is such a firecracker and very free-spirited. He does what he wants when he wants, and seems to be living life to it's fullest. The middle boy, the one I talked to today, is mostly quiet and soft-spoken, but when you get him talking, boy does he have a lot to say! He's so charming and sweet!
I love my job so much. It's moments like this that makes me so glad I chose to work at ECOC! :)
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
On A More Sober Note
One of my ex-boyfriends was deployed recently with the Army... We didn't really break up on the best terms but I think we've become more civilized and better friends since then. I hope and pray that he stays safe while he's away.
Keep Jared in your prayers and thoughts if you're reading this.
Keep Jared in your prayers and thoughts if you're reading this.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Once Again, The Blog Prevails
Can't focus on homework tonight, the blog beckons ;)
I'm super excited about Friday this the week! I'm going up to Kirksville to see my family and to go to the high school's homecoming parade and game :) Cael will be super excited about all the tigers and candy at the parade. We probably won't end up staying for the whole game since he has an early bed time, but I would love to see the half time show this year! I miss hanging out with my band friends, though most of them have graduated now. Cael's excited about seeing his "Ni-Ni" (Natalie) and Papa Shane :) He got new Papa Shane boots on Saturday and wears them all the time now!
Cael has also been super cranky recently... Almost constantly. He has a HUGE diaper rash from when he had Hand Foot and Mouth. All of the prescription medication for the original treatment of the rash has been used up and now we're using a combination of his eczema treatment plus a diaper rash cream. I actually just ran out of the hydrocortisone today so I'll have to call in for more :/ But the layers are hydrocortisone, Cera Ve lotion, Aquaphor, then Desitin or Boudreaux's Butt Paste (depending on which one I can find at the time...Cael likes to play with and hide them). Nothing seems to be affecting it though and it's driving Brad, me, and Cael crazy. He wakes up in the night itching and scratching, then has trouble going back to sleep. It's killing us... Hopefully we can get things figured out, minus a doctor. Cael doesn't seem to like Dr. Lovell all that much.
But on to the less yucky stuff!
Cael has been "helping" me in the kitchen a lot in the past few weeks and today I caught him doing the cutest thing :) He had my oven mitt on one arm (it covers his whole arm, from fingersto shoulder) and was poking the front of the oven, saying "Hot! Hot!" It was so funny, I just about died from laughing! He turned around and said, "Hot! Cookie!" and I laughed even harder. I told him to show Dada what he had on his arm so he ran out to Brad and said hot again. Then he went back to the kitchen and I took video of him doing it again, and blowing on the pretend hot food :) It's on Facebook, if you have me as a friend on there!
I can't wait for Friday to get here already. I miss my family and my friends! So looking forward to this! :)
That was a little off topic... Oh well, I'm feeling wired right now. Not a caffeine-fueled type of wired, more like a "I have everything on my mind at one time" kind of wired. Diaper rashes, homework assignments, work, friends, family, packing, housework, Brad, Cael.... Yikes, I sound like I'm crazy....
Maybe I am though.
I'm super excited about Friday this the week! I'm going up to Kirksville to see my family and to go to the high school's homecoming parade and game :) Cael will be super excited about all the tigers and candy at the parade. We probably won't end up staying for the whole game since he has an early bed time, but I would love to see the half time show this year! I miss hanging out with my band friends, though most of them have graduated now. Cael's excited about seeing his "Ni-Ni" (Natalie) and Papa Shane :) He got new Papa Shane boots on Saturday and wears them all the time now!
Cael has also been super cranky recently... Almost constantly. He has a HUGE diaper rash from when he had Hand Foot and Mouth. All of the prescription medication for the original treatment of the rash has been used up and now we're using a combination of his eczema treatment plus a diaper rash cream. I actually just ran out of the hydrocortisone today so I'll have to call in for more :/ But the layers are hydrocortisone, Cera Ve lotion, Aquaphor, then Desitin or Boudreaux's Butt Paste (depending on which one I can find at the time...Cael likes to play with and hide them). Nothing seems to be affecting it though and it's driving Brad, me, and Cael crazy. He wakes up in the night itching and scratching, then has trouble going back to sleep. It's killing us... Hopefully we can get things figured out, minus a doctor. Cael doesn't seem to like Dr. Lovell all that much.
But on to the less yucky stuff!
Cael has been "helping" me in the kitchen a lot in the past few weeks and today I caught him doing the cutest thing :) He had my oven mitt on one arm (it covers his whole arm, from fingersto shoulder) and was poking the front of the oven, saying "Hot! Hot!" It was so funny, I just about died from laughing! He turned around and said, "Hot! Cookie!" and I laughed even harder. I told him to show Dada what he had on his arm so he ran out to Brad and said hot again. Then he went back to the kitchen and I took video of him doing it again, and blowing on the pretend hot food :) It's on Facebook, if you have me as a friend on there!
I can't wait for Friday to get here already. I miss my family and my friends! So looking forward to this! :)
That was a little off topic... Oh well, I'm feeling wired right now. Not a caffeine-fueled type of wired, more like a "I have everything on my mind at one time" kind of wired. Diaper rashes, homework assignments, work, friends, family, packing, housework, Brad, Cael.... Yikes, I sound like I'm crazy....
Maybe I am though.
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Homework vs. Blog
Ummm.... Blogging won.
Cael has been so grouchy and fussy for the past few days. I was attributing it to teeth but after seeing him pulling on his ear, I think it's another ear infection. BOO! *thumbs down* His constant whining and crying at the smallest little things is driving me nuts. I'm sure he's sick. It's a mom thing.
Good news on the weight loss today! The size 12 jeans that I bought on Labor Day weekend (which were fitting rather snugly when I bought them and after wearing them a few times) are now almost falling off my waist. Who's happy? This lady! I'll admit, I haven't been doing the best as far as diet goes but I think working at the daycare more (and lifting our 43 pound student up for diaper changes) has been helping me lose the weight...and possibly break my back ;)
Sometimes I feel like I've broken something in me, like my brain or my personality. That just sounds sill though...a broken personality. I sometimes think I may have lost my personality in a way. I'm not sure what happened between pregnancy and now, but I have changed a lot...not necessarily in the best way. I'm always willing to help anybody at (almost) any time. I have gained this ability to forgive almost anything. But I've lost a lot of humor. I've lost the ability to think for myself, just to fit in to the group. I let people walk all over me and take advantage of my willingness to help. And though I may forgive, I never forget the wrong that was done. I'm more boring too. My life just centers around parenting, my relationship with Brad, school, work, and Facebook. Consequently, those are really the only things I talk about, thus making me boring. I can't remember a lot of my "good" life stories. Fail memory is fail. I can't remember what movie I last watched, what I ate for breakfast today, or to do the dishes. Luckily, I can remember basic motor functions and I can remember how to talk (most of the time). And I can remember who loves me.
Cael has been so grouchy and fussy for the past few days. I was attributing it to teeth but after seeing him pulling on his ear, I think it's another ear infection. BOO! *thumbs down* His constant whining and crying at the smallest little things is driving me nuts. I'm sure he's sick. It's a mom thing.
Good news on the weight loss today! The size 12 jeans that I bought on Labor Day weekend (which were fitting rather snugly when I bought them and after wearing them a few times) are now almost falling off my waist. Who's happy? This lady! I'll admit, I haven't been doing the best as far as diet goes but I think working at the daycare more (and lifting our 43 pound student up for diaper changes) has been helping me lose the weight...and possibly break my back ;)
Sometimes I feel like I've broken something in me, like my brain or my personality. That just sounds sill though...a broken personality. I sometimes think I may have lost my personality in a way. I'm not sure what happened between pregnancy and now, but I have changed a lot...not necessarily in the best way. I'm always willing to help anybody at (almost) any time. I have gained this ability to forgive almost anything. But I've lost a lot of humor. I've lost the ability to think for myself, just to fit in to the group. I let people walk all over me and take advantage of my willingness to help. And though I may forgive, I never forget the wrong that was done. I'm more boring too. My life just centers around parenting, my relationship with Brad, school, work, and Facebook. Consequently, those are really the only things I talk about, thus making me boring. I can't remember a lot of my "good" life stories. Fail memory is fail. I can't remember what movie I last watched, what I ate for breakfast today, or to do the dishes. Luckily, I can remember basic motor functions and I can remember how to talk (most of the time). And I can remember who loves me.
Monday, September 12, 2011
Baby Fever.... BLARGH!
Seeing all these pregnant ladies through my Facebook, in the March 2010 mamas group I'm in, and out and about in public makes me want another baby... But I can't think about that now! I have too many things to do, like work, take care of Cael and Brad, potty train Cael, and buy a house... Though not all of these things will be happening this year.
I do miss the pregnancy part. I loved feeling Cael moving around, hiccuping, kicking, and hearing his heartbeat. I love having him to play with as well. I love holding him, tossing him around, and playing with his cars. I love talking with him and hearing him babble :) I just wish I could have this all over again, when we're financially ready for it.
Soon enough, Brad and I will be married, Cael will be older, and we will move into a larger living area. Hopefully it's my house :) but of course, it does not do well to want more when I already have a wonderful life as it is! My time will come.
I do miss the pregnancy part. I loved feeling Cael moving around, hiccuping, kicking, and hearing his heartbeat. I love having him to play with as well. I love holding him, tossing him around, and playing with his cars. I love talking with him and hearing him babble :) I just wish I could have this all over again, when we're financially ready for it.
Soon enough, Brad and I will be married, Cael will be older, and we will move into a larger living area. Hopefully it's my house :) but of course, it does not do well to want more when I already have a wonderful life as it is! My time will come.
Friday, September 9, 2011
Questions That Aren't Necessarily The Best Seem To Come At Inopportune Times
It seems like I have been questioning everything in my life recently, from my relationship with Brad to whether I am fit to be a mom to if God really exists... And they're starting to consume me, as seen by me staying up while Brad sleeps. I'm just writhing on the inside and feel like I can't let it out to anyone in person... But maybe that's just little chicken-shit me. I've never been good with face-to-face, especially with the people who actually care about what's happening. Like Brad...
I hate that I bottle things up. I hate that I can't share what I'm feeling. I know Brad hates it too. But what if what I'm feeling is wrong? What if it makes other people unhappy or angry? I can't have that, it just can't happen. I don't want to make anyone mad....especially Brad. My outlets are few and far between when I think about it, just because I don't want to bother anyone with my insignificant problems. Everyone has bigger fish to fry than I do, so why bother adding my pity party? But then, when I can't hold it in any longer, it comes out in a flood of tears, anger, hopelessness...even if I am on my medication.
That's another thing to complain about. My meds. They may work some days but on the days they don't seem to affect anything, it's like I'm a freaking nutcase all over again. Just send me back to Quincy. I don't deserve what I have if I can't be happy with it. I don't want to change my meds for the bazillionth time, I just want something that works the first time and can last forever. Brad and Cael both need a strong rock, and I'm pretty much the opposite...
And you know what I think. I think that if there is a loving God, he is just a typical male... You love me? Well you sure have a messed up way of showing it. Hey, are you even there? Do you care? I'm not asking for stuff to be handed to me. I'm not a Thomas type. I just want to you know that you can do more than make butterflies, babies, and hurricanes. When I pray, you sure as hell don't seem to care, God. Is your inbox getting too full? Do you even have time for me? Why do you need my praise and worship when you already have billions that bow at your (invisible) feet? Where are you when it matters most?
I'm done with this. I'm done with this post. I'm done trying to talk to brick walls. I'm done trying, period. Why try when it ends in failure? Try to fit in with the crowd and just be a nameless face. That's all I was every really good at anyway...
I hate that I bottle things up. I hate that I can't share what I'm feeling. I know Brad hates it too. But what if what I'm feeling is wrong? What if it makes other people unhappy or angry? I can't have that, it just can't happen. I don't want to make anyone mad....especially Brad. My outlets are few and far between when I think about it, just because I don't want to bother anyone with my insignificant problems. Everyone has bigger fish to fry than I do, so why bother adding my pity party? But then, when I can't hold it in any longer, it comes out in a flood of tears, anger, hopelessness...even if I am on my medication.
That's another thing to complain about. My meds. They may work some days but on the days they don't seem to affect anything, it's like I'm a freaking nutcase all over again. Just send me back to Quincy. I don't deserve what I have if I can't be happy with it. I don't want to change my meds for the bazillionth time, I just want something that works the first time and can last forever. Brad and Cael both need a strong rock, and I'm pretty much the opposite...
And you know what I think. I think that if there is a loving God, he is just a typical male... You love me? Well you sure have a messed up way of showing it. Hey, are you even there? Do you care? I'm not asking for stuff to be handed to me. I'm not a Thomas type. I just want to you know that you can do more than make butterflies, babies, and hurricanes. When I pray, you sure as hell don't seem to care, God. Is your inbox getting too full? Do you even have time for me? Why do you need my praise and worship when you already have billions that bow at your (invisible) feet? Where are you when it matters most?
I'm done with this. I'm done with this post. I'm done trying to talk to brick walls. I'm done trying, period. Why try when it ends in failure? Try to fit in with the crowd and just be a nameless face. That's all I was every really good at anyway...
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
OMG Pain
For quite a few days (since Saturday) I have had an awful stomach pain + nausea. It sucked royally. I tried everything to get rid of it: Tums, Pepto, Tylenol, ibuprofen, heating pad, ice. You name it, I probably did it. And it STILL wouldn't go away. My ultimate solution? Doctor. Again. And she said that, according to my urine sample, I had quite a bit of blood being peed out of me. From this she drew the conclusion that I have kidney stones. Whoa, wait, what? Pretty much what I thought lol She set me up with an antibiotic and a special pain med (which Walgreens did not fill D:< ) and sent me home with a pee-catcher and a strainer so I can go "kidney stone fishing" (my doctor's words, not mine). Sure enough, I come home to use said pee-catcher and strainer and I caught a sliver of a stone! It was super weird and I looked it up on Google just to be sure it was one. It's the tiniest little square I've ever seen and it hurt like a mofo to get out (I actually just had the same pain a second ago). Luckily, I know I'm not dying and that I don't have appendicitis or gallstones :)
Cael has been such a daddy's buddy lately! Brad has been working on a new phrase that has stuck: "Love Dada." Cael also uses this phrase for Dede, GiGi, and Papa....but not Mama :'( But I still get more hugs and kisses from Cael so I guess that counts for something!
Cael is also getting in a new tooth, a canine this time. It's taking FOREVER to come through. It's taking even longer than the molars did! He's going to look so big when he has a mouth full of teeth! It's hard to believe he is 18 months old already... And he talks so much! Today in the car, he was jabbering on and on about something but he was stringing actual words together in a nonsensical way. I can't even remember what he was saying, I was laughing so hard at how serious and important he sounded! But every words he said was an actual word, not just babble.
My classes aren't sucking too bad yet... I'm just not getting things turned in the time I want to. Like I should be working on it right now but I'm blogging instead... Shame upon me. But I enjoy blogging more than homework :)
Cael has been such a daddy's buddy lately! Brad has been working on a new phrase that has stuck: "Love Dada." Cael also uses this phrase for Dede, GiGi, and Papa....but not Mama :'( But I still get more hugs and kisses from Cael so I guess that counts for something!
Cael is also getting in a new tooth, a canine this time. It's taking FOREVER to come through. It's taking even longer than the molars did! He's going to look so big when he has a mouth full of teeth! It's hard to believe he is 18 months old already... And he talks so much! Today in the car, he was jabbering on and on about something but he was stringing actual words together in a nonsensical way. I can't even remember what he was saying, I was laughing so hard at how serious and important he sounded! But every words he said was an actual word, not just babble.
My classes aren't sucking too bad yet... I'm just not getting things turned in the time I want to. Like I should be working on it right now but I'm blogging instead... Shame upon me. But I enjoy blogging more than homework :)
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